Thursday, April 27, 2017

It's already enough.

Each Teachers' Day and Mid-autumn Day of before was so quiet,no greetings,no wishes,cheap oakley sunglasses, no gifts.Now I am full of sense of happiness,just because of an andguo from a girl on Teachers' Day,and a little picture from a boy on Mid-autumn Day.For present me,it's needed so much,I wish something can fill my heart,thank them,it's already enough.
Now I should open my student-world,more happiness will come to me.Although a bit fear to be hurt,or some students won't like me.This year,I really want to get close to them,to face them without any mask.I look back,each of moment of getting into pains,there would always be students helping me to pull through those days,So I remember them deeper than their remembering me.So no matter whether I succeed or fail in being such a mainteacher,I will try my best,only wish to spend a quiet and happy year with them together.Lovely boys and girls,you are just one or two years older than my son,how should I protect you all.Sometimes I have to pretend to be serious or angry,just because I want you alll to study well and be good kids,cheap nfl jerseys, to have a good mindset to face your future.

Feeling the years

Eighteen years started my teaching career,almost the same age as my students.Still remember the first sentence I said to my students in my first class.that I introduced myself to students,fake oakley sunglasses, giving them my full name caused some sniggerings.Later I knew just because there was a girl student's name same as mine.One or two years ago,in a neighbourhood,someone called me behind me,I looked around,oh,it was that girl whose name is also Ana.Merely she has already become a mum,not a little girl yet.Although at the beginning of my teachers years,I was too young to manage class well,however,I can feel they liked me much.Others told me they always called me"Teacher Xiao Feng."While thinking of those years,the days full of sunshine.
Several years later,my age is a couple of years older than my students.In their eyes,I was between a big sister and a teacher.They would say I was not strict enough,wholesale jerseys, not like a mainteacher.Although some disappointment has came to me sometimes,I still could feel too much enjoyment.I was ever like a child with them.So carefully to deal with my each class.try to make them happy in class.While thinking of those years,the days full of great zeal.
Some more years past,my age is just like their aunt.However,some of them still called me "sister".I don't know in their minds,I was young or that was just a feeling like a sister.They liked to get close to me,I liked them,however I tried to keep a certain distance with them.Because I fear the coldness after warmth.While thinking of them,I still feel warmth.
Now I have these students like the age of my son,only one or two years older than my son.hh,How to treat them?They are lovely indeed,I even can't find my heart to be strict with them.I like to be frank and true with them,I wish we can be kind to each other,let all the days full of smilings instead of shoutings and criticisms.While facing them,cheap mlb hats, I can feel they are the savers sent by God to help me spend these desolate days.

helpless relationship

A kind of affection is only not wanna make her angry.If she is angry,I will feel uneasy in heart,cheap jerseys, just feeling parents watching me and I can't make parents disappointed.To be frank,never miss her,or feel any moved,just a kind of relationship.I know I won't think of her even though I need help one day.That sentence is right,one of  terrible distances is that both's hearts are so far in spite of standing so close.With its nature,i don't wanna care about anyone intentionally,because love only rises from the heart.However,in all recalls with her,there is no real care and love.Her terrific face while angry already makes me hate so much.A large pressure comes to me while being with her.Sometimes I am puzzled,too,why will I always do what I don't want to do  to please her,the words from my mouth are always gone through my brain many times,aviod making her unhappy,however,listening to her words which are always with critiques,I only keep sillent.Sometimes,I really feel it very ridiculous.I can't believe there is someone in the world thinking herself without any faults,thinking herself perfect.hh.However,what should do?just to cater to her.Nobody can change.But the time with her together is usually my suffering.Maybe these true words willl never be spoken out until death.In fact,I don't want to hurt
 her at all.I have no other persons to miss besides my small family.Those are going far,who love me,cheap snapback hats, please take care!I No one can replace you forever in my heart.Although a bit lonely while thiniking of these,I will live a better life.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Create another new home!

A small house may attract me more now,because it seems warmer and more lovely.All plans are being carried on,cheap oakleys, and my heart was really a bit excited about it.These days are my husband's busiest ones for I stopped managing most of the things.He was a careful man and I am sure that he can make everything to use conveniently.Every evening falls,a dirt man comes to our home with a big smile face.He loves house decoration and never feels tired while thinking of another a small warm home.
Dear son,come on,and in one year,we can move into the small warm house and begin to experience his hardest three years with him together in it.I love colours,I wanna paint it in my favourite colours,even don't mind whether it looks funny or exaggerated!I feel so happy as soon as thinking about that.This is our life,busy and full of hopes.Son is our hope,home is our castle where we can store all the happiness of our own inside.Some happiness can't be discribed by words,our life is just for a happier home more than anything else.We can give up anything else but everything of our family.Because of such a thought,cheap jerseys, I get away from all others little by little.

Fighting for certificates!!

After the activity of school's open classes,I was chosen to show another domo class in a farther place.I hesitated for a while at the beginning,cheap fake oakleys, for I have hated doing such things much.However,I have to agree on it because I need certificates these years,especially for my two"masters". Although I can take most of things easily in life now ,I still wanna show a bit perfect one as long as giving me enough time.But I have to teach the lesson which they ask me to. What I can do is just to wait. I want to  make a  good preparation ahead,but I have to wait.So I decide to forget it temporarily,as if nothing will happen.
After the exams,I found that there was no need teaching hard at all because I felt I had been saying to the back blackboard alone.Yeah,in fact,cheap snapback hats, they heard nothing or understood nothing,so this year should be a self-showing one.Actually,life is self-acting,working is self-acting and everything else....I must have prepared such a good atitude to face every part of life.
Son got not bad scores in this exam,although he is so unsatisfied with them.Even he is expecting next exam's coming.I am so proud of my son for his love of studying.I should learn from him,start to learn!Get away from my computer.Weather is getting cooler,it's time to enjoy changing my favourite clothes.Everything I have believed in is right and I am so confident in myself.This is Me,love myself!!

Slaves!

All Ninth-graded teachers were forced to make up lessons on Saturdays from today.At the beginning of knowing that I would teach Grade Nine,cheap nfl jerseys, I have already considered it would be a matter of certain this term.When everything was not clear,just an inform coming.I asked a few questions causing a quarrel with a leader who I had appropriated.haha,all of the teachers didn't want to be involved in it and hide distantly.In fact,how come would we get really angry with each other at all.What we talked about was very important for all the teacher's rights and responsibilities.Yeah, In their eyes, there is only " money" which is what they only care about.Although school didn't speak of salary of making up lessons at the start or even gave no a clear one until now, they still said nothing merely full of anger in heart.Sometimes,I think it very hard to understand them,what they worry about and fear is too much, even our own time is taken up and all the work along with risk are distributed among the teachers.I went to the headmaster and talked about all of those,and I told him I only represented myself,cheap hats, having nothing to do with anyone else.All the words between us are very necessary and make my heart a bit easy.Actually, I prefer to give free lessons when I am free on Saturdays as long as school protect teachers' rights and think for teachers ahead.
I am sure that most of students hate making up lessons,too.However, anyone of them can't break away from the evil hands of their parents and school.Many looked so painful and couldn't sit well in class.
This is just society.No reason!All the leaders can't stand by their promise.A really funny society.They are over drafting their credit.I have right to say,all what I should say.Even though we are all slaves,, wholesale jerseys

Monday, April 17, 2017

just do it

•It has been years since the first time I got access to swimming, and I did try my best from then on to match the skills, but I failed.
•I felt so nervous every time I got in the water that I couldn’t even breath, not to mention relax and swim like a fish. when I got out of the swimming pool, there was always a wave of sadness ran over me. there were so much people who swam back and forth, cheap oakley sunglasses, why not me, especially after so much hard work;
•I decided to give it anther shot and find a coach about two weeks ago
•I did.
•And 13 days later, l am a swimmer;
•When I talked about it with my friends, some of them told me that it was much too expensive to spent 2000 on learning how to swim, while others argued it would eventually paid off if I keeping plugging away, physically and mentally;
•As far as I am concerned, first of all,i finally got what I want for a long time, it just worth it.
•On the other hand, I learnt more.
•I have to practice after work, and keep showing every time, no matter it was raining or scroching hot,I never took a rain check.
•my English dream or my work went exactly the way it was supposed to be.Nothing was affected in the 13 days. but i end up with more than i can think of.
•I learnt swimming, as you know
•I got that you could never know what you’re capable of;
•You can get what you want if you really want it,if you try from now on, harder and harder;it would eventually paid off in some way.
•Money is versatile, if it was well paide,your life would be different,cheap jerseys, or it is just a pad of paper sitting in the bank.

Your First Birthday

Yesterday was your first birthday. But you were too young to realize. You waked up as early as every day before and asked for going out door by pointing the door with your little finger. So your grandfather took you out in his arms. One hour later, wholesale nfl jerseys, when you came back, the roof and wall of the living room were full of colors of balloons. You paid all your attention by opening your eyes widely to the colorful balls. Your uncle Yang, who lives downstairs, took a toy, a blue jumping horse, to you at the early morning. Your father made it inflated. When you rode on it, You were very happy to open your mouth and made the only 6 new teeth out. At the same time, your father was taking photos for you and the little horse. Your grandma and grandmother began to cook lunch at 7 o’clock.

According to the custom, you need to draw lots. So your mother prepared calculator, mouse, seal, car model, writing brush, dictionary, cash, camera, table tennis bats, a ruler the day before yesterday, and boiled an egg at the morning. All the things were arranged in a line, and you are put on the floor. Your crawled immediately to the line and took the writing brush at first, then you took the egg. The writing brush is one symbol of Calligrapher, painter, and the egg shows that you will not hungry in the future. But your mother thought it is not good enough, cheap nfl hats, so she arranged the things again in another order, and she put the money and seal in the middle. However, you are as clinging as last time to choose the writing brush and the egg. What you have done made all of us laughing at once. But as you know, no matter what you choose, we will be lucky as we wish, and this is not the really symbol of your future development. So, just be yourself.

After the scrumptious lunch, we cleared the dining table and took out the birthday cake, which was booked by your mother yesterday afternoon, from the refrigerator. You are so excited when you saw the big cream cake. Your aunt, Mrs. Hu, lighted your first birthday candle, and your father set the camera to take videos. Your mother blew out the candle before you can do that. And, at last, your birthday party ended with a happy song that named “Happy birthday to you!”

“ Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you…”

KTV on the phone

“Chang Ba”is popular App of KTV on the mobile, the free social network, there are audio and echo mixing together functional, cheap snapbacks, it can be make up your voice to be perfect, and not only provide the accompaniment but also with the correspond lyric word by word, it could get the mark after your performance to share with your wechat friend if you like.
I am not a good singer since I was a student, no one single song I could finish it by myself. I cannot carry a tune, so during the past of ten or twenty years I didn’t like go to KTV with my friends at all, unless I had to be there just a silencer or sometime I would like dancing with them just did not make the atmosphere too cold.
I like listening the music and songs for sure, some time with my earphone I am listening the song on the phone. Since I learn this APP, I know this is only a network, no one knows who I am, I can close my door to take the record of my songs, this was the first time listen my own voice, I can sing a song, right? Even it is not good enough but I have a little self-confident then, I am trying to sing one after other, I found more and more soft gifts and clapping I received, wow I can do it, cheap replica oakleys, I know compare with good funs of singers, I am a little potato, but I like this App very much, therefore I will practice to build up my confident, it can make me happy and enjoy.

Letting go

It's been a long time since I post the last blog, once I have said I would persist in doing so, anyway I'm back, so many words need to say, but I don't know where I should begin. To be honest, there is no meanning of this blog, my intended thought is that speak it out, cheap nfl jerseys, letting go of all my unpleasant thoughts, in other words, writting is a good way to keep balance, to find out all your thoughts, even the slitest idea, and to see who I am.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

This Summer I Travelled to Japan

This summer, I spent seven exciting days in Japan. My Hubby and I visited Tokyo, Sapporo and several small cities in Hokkaido. We planned our trip on our own, booked travel tickets, hotels and guest-house two months in advance.

I was amazed by how civilied the Japanese society is. You won’t see any rubbish or trash cans in the streets. I still remember that on the first day when I got out of the Tokyo station, I saw a street cleaner, dressed neatly, using his broom to sweep the gap near the flower bed, even though it was so clean already. The public toilets is another manifestation. No odor,cheap oakleys, no waste tissues were allowed to appear in there. They got detailed explanations and instructions to show you how to use a toilet and make the next user comfortable.

Another thing is about local people. You can see order and courtesy everywhere. I saw everyone queuing up and letting the passengers get off before they get on when taking the metro. No rush at all. I saw nobody take the designated seats for the old, the preganent and the disabled. I saw a blind man walking along the tactile paving with a stick groping his way.

One of the most memorable thing was happened on the train from Hakodate to Tokyo. We only got standing tickets even five days ahead of the departure time. It was in August, a lot of Japanese people were on vacation too. The train seats were all reserved. So we just standing at junction area between two train cars. As the train was moving forward, more people with standing tickets got on board. The small area was crowded with people. Even the stewardess with a trolley could not push through the crowd. So to make room for the stewardess, I went into the car. I was a little bit stratled that there were actually many vacant seats in there. But those people standing in the narrow space were reluctant to seat down even they looked exhausted.

I was standing there, thinking “Why don’t they just take a seat and rest a little? Are they too rigid to do that? My feet hurt...I’ll probably collapse...” After standing on the train all the way for four hours pondering over the question and reminiscing the past few days in Hokkaido, cheap jerseys, I finally understood them. Japanese people are just educated like that. They don’t want to bother others. Keep everything in order is everyone's responsiblity.

I feel so comfortable being in this country and I look forward to the next adventure in Japan:)

Build a National Consciousness

 Most of us know the four famous books in our country. The Romance of Three Kingdoms is a novel woven around the warring states of Wei, Shu, Wu in Chinese history. It is a story about that three countries utilize political guile, strategy and resourcefulness to preserve their states, cheap fake oakleys, how one succeeded and how the other two failed. At that time, a weak kingdom is more likely in danger because it would be attacked by some others and there was no protection organisation which they could turn to.
  In modern society, there are world institution and morality which every country should comply with. Besides, there are also several organisations that can dispose of the task as well as give support to those who need help, such as the United Nations Organisation. Therefore, it is fortunate for some countries to join in the world security organisation,cheap snapback hats, so that they will be able to preserve their independence.
  However, accepting support and protection from organisations is just one limited way for small countries to protect themselves. The most important element of a nation is the national consciousness which means all the people in this country feel proud of their own nation and be responsible to work together to protect its sovereignty. On condition that the people in a country have no national consciousness, the spirit of this country would die.

The best is yet to come

    When I was in junior high, my favourite English magazine once quoted from prominent American poet Walt Whitman: keep your face always towards the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you, which has been my motto ever since. Whenever I feel dark or helpless,cheap nfl jerseys, I will read it for three times in my heart and take a deep breath, telling myself that everything will work out just fine. It turns out to be truly useful.
     I went through an extremely hard time in the last year of junior high; I had tracheitis and stayed in the hospital for half a month, when I recovered, I found out that I couldn't catch up with other students in class and the courses seemed really hard for me. I exerted great pressure on myself, thus resulted into severe mental illness, I lost my temper easily and failed to concentrate on everything. At the time I realized that it is a serious problem which needed to be attended to, I put the motto on my desk and read it every day, I believed that if I keep my face towards the sunshine,cheap hats, the best is yet to come. Half a month later, the monitor and two other girls made friends with me and formed a study group to asist me, they pulled me out of the dark hole and prepared me for a bright future. I am eternally grateful for everything they have done for me.
     Last few weeks were difficult, I was very close to getting the scholarship but I failed in the end. I was depressed all day when I heard the news. The motto occurred to me and I decided to hold back the negative emotions, then I chatted with my friend Dana, she invited me to her dormitory for dinner and encouraged me to fight next year by telling me her own story. She introduced me to her friends and they all wanted to teach me Russian, wholesale jerseys, which I couldn't even think of, for I have been dying to learn Russian for a long time but I could not find a teacher.
     God is fair, what we are required to do is to ease our strain and believe in everything, it's meaningless to complain all the time. Why not walk out of the shadows and stand in the sun, the best is yet to come.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

how an overseas girl becomes a leftover woman in China

NuHanZi
NuHanZi is a very popular slang term in China, if a woman who is financial and emotional independence, who can deal with most of the difficulties in personal life and do things on her own without relying on a man, it is likely the girl will be called NuHanZi, literally meaning a manly woman.

I am not touched by the name: NuHanZi, it is just like call someone unmarried: “Leftover men, leftover women.” This  sounds pretty rough, not nice.

A single woman who has been overseas for years is becoming NuHanZi.

A spoiled child in China
Being a spoiled child in China for doing nothing at all, someone even has never thrown a rubbish bag or knows how to use a vacuum cleaner, let alone doing housework, cooking or paying bills, that’s not her business.

A girl who only focuses on studying, studying so that she can get high marks in order to enter into a reputable uni and find a decent job.

One day, she leaves her parents and settles down in a completely new country.

There are two choices: she can either return back to China or being independent surviving in a new world.

To be independent in Australia
Therefore, from the first day she arrives in Australia, she has to rely on herself. For example, renting a house, buying furniture, shopping, doing laundry, paying bills and finding a part time job while doing a full-time study.

She gives up princess life in China to be a Cinderella in Australia.

In addition, the girl has limited time shopping, no time for makeup, hands are getting rougher, she could be careless about fashionable clothes and it is normal to use an out-of-date mobile.

Emily
My friend, Emily, in one Chinese term: White, Rich and Beautiful.

Can you image, one day when I visited her, you know, what she’s doing? She’s assembling furniture.

“Wow, you are so smart, that would definitely kill me, I don't think I can handle it”. I said.

By the way, now I can fix small problems for dishwasher, washing machine even toilet while I did not know how to change a light bulb when I was in China.

Because it’s too expensive to find someone to do it in Australia,  there's no choice.

Now I feel multi-talented, haha.

An independent woman could also be elegant for wearing high heels, dress nicely, enjoys life as much as she can, but her mission is not only caring for a specific man, it’s like without the man, the whole life is over, she has her own lifestyle and standard.

a left-over woman in China
When Emily goes back to China, she’s becoming a left-over woman.

Most successful guys in their 30s are getting married, the younger ones who are either living with Mum or they are quite unwilling to accept a girl who earns a higher salary with an overseas background, especially who is open-minded.

They prefer a girl who is still playing a traditional wife role, who can take care of them, who can get along very well with mother-in-law after married.

They would like a girl with a beautiful face than with an independent mind.

For Emily, she doesn’t care about  the property, financial things because she can earn money by herself.

She’s looking for someone who understands her, gives her care emotionally, puts her in mind, who can be a responsible future husband.

However, she definitely doesn’t like a man who loves her money or her Australian citizenship, so she hides her family and overseas background when she’s in China.

Because she’s looking for an honest, sincere man who gives her true love, who loves her as a person, who can talk with, having fun for being together.

In China, as a single child, most young men are spoilt by parents, he is mum’s boy. Therefore, if a girl with strong opinions, the guy simply has no idea, which side he stands for, Mum or future wife.

Emily
That would be hard for Emily to get along with mum-in-law, with kind of western value, she suggests after marriage, the family life is just between husband and wife, Mum-in-law is not supposed to disturb the couple's personal life.

Future Mum-in-law
With completely traditional Chinese value—future mum-in-law is expecting future daughter-in-law taking care of her husband: "after you marry my son, you are part of my family, I am still in charge of it, I buy an apartment for your marriage, I raise my son with so much effort."

"The time I married my husband, I listened to my mum-in-law for so many years. Now my son will have a wife who would like to ignore me. That makes me angry, absolutely, I would not allow my son to have such an open mind girl."

Emily
That’s funny, I don’t care you buy your son an apartment or not, I only wanna to be with one person, just considering my future husband is so weak, everything listens to Mum, being mum’s lovely boy, then where’s me?

I’d better stay alone than having trouble for dealing with such complicated relations, that would drive me mad.

Independent successful businessmen in China
For those independent men, who are over 30 being successful, most of them are married, as they are rich, so they are sought after by all the girls.

Those men prefer beautiful girls, Emily is beautiful, but she’s not keen on a successful businessman. Because she doesn’t like someone being home so late every day, getting drunk after business dinner with clients. To be worse, after marriage, he could easily find a younger lover which is popular and could be seldom with his wife.

He cares more about money; he’d better buy Emily a luxury bag than spending time on her.

But Emily doesn’t lack money; she only wants someone who can spoil her with time and care.

Meet a western guy in China
Eventually, one day, Emily meets a cute handsome western guy in China.

Yes, they can communicate in English and get along very well, he’s working in Emily’s hometown, what a good chance!!!

After a while, Emily realises that they have the different needs.

Emily wanna find a proper husband and having kids, the western guy just wanna having fun because he doesn’t know his future so he can’t make a commitment to the marriage.


Leftover men and leftover women in China
In recent years, there is an increasing number of leftover men and leftover women in China, cheap jerseys,especially in big cities due to Western value influences traditional Chinese value and some other reasons.

Women are easily in this group if they work in a company with foreigners, or staying overseas for a while, or being very successful or  highly educated earning a higher salary.

No one knows what's going on in the future- getting better or worse.

We wish all the singles good luck

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College Ages

Looking back on the past years, I always miss the school ages in my life. I still remember that the first time I went to Shenzhen, there is one big headache thing I have to go through. When I got into the public bus,wholesale nfl jerseys, I want to throw up. I seldom take the bus before college. As time gone, I get used to take bus once a week or twice a week.

The most important person I would like to mention is my dear aunt. When I first come to Shenzhen, she took me to buy some new clothes including skirts. It spend her about RMB 1000. She suggest me that to wear fashionable  in modern city, is it mean that I dressed like a country girl at that time ? Maybe the answer was yes. During those years, I really appreciate for her kindness and generosity to me,cheap nfl hats, I will never forget her love.

I think the college year is unforgettable, although I do not have too much money for living, I read extensively and absorbed new knowledge within my capacity. Compare to the previous personality, I think not too much change on myself , I am still a simply person with grateful heart as usual. Some classmates I knew in college ages,cheap oakley sunglasses, I treasure them very much. They have been very helpful and sincere.

weekend

Two day ago,and several friends went to climb the mountain tour, danxia mountain .This is the first time my friend planning to  free artivities,in half a month we began to order train tickets,cheap snapbacks,bookig hotel and ticket.
Shaoguan these two day the weather is cloudy,when we arrive shaoguan east station,sitting opposite us old couple told us to danxia moutain is not a good time ,like this weather cannt see the sunrise and sunset.After half an hour ,we arrived at the danxia moutatin station,we are so excited,we first take three word pictures with danxia mountain.we are find already booking hotel,and put down luggage,and start climb mountain .On afternoon stay in Yin Yuan Stone scenic area with wating for sunset.As the old couple they said is not a good time,no have sunset.The sky dark night,we can only return to the hotel for dinner.We early to rest,cheap replica oakleys,for tomorrow sunrise at five o'clock to Zhanglaofeng .-------To be continued

The Day I told Him I Love You

October 31st, 2016  11:00pm

I had been sitting in front of your dormitory for an hour.

I rang up your phone. You answered the phone after 3 rings.

Before you talked, I said:"Come down quickly! I am sitting on the stone in front of your dorm!"

Your voice had a little bit shy:"Ah...My feet are so sore."

"Quick! I am waitting for you!"

"Alright."

Hanged up the phone. I felt my heart beat violently.

I flipped on the third day I got along with you, and I kept this little secret for four months. And now I finally screwed up my courage and prepared to tell you I love you.

You came to me.

I smile.

That night, cheap nfl jerseys,we sat together and had a long conversation.

Smiling and laughing and talking as usual.

At 3:30am, you sent me back to my dorm.

At 7:00am, I woke up without soul.

At 12:30pm, my roomie brought me a lunch box.

And I cried of tears and snot.



Julie,
November 15th, 2016